Have you felt this way too?

Have you ever felt like the whole world is crushing down on you, and no matter how hard you try to look there is not a single soul around you that could help?

You felt so helpless, so weak, so vulnerable.

Suddenly everything around you sounds like a joke - A BIG FAT JOKE

You realize that all the effort and hard work you put in was a waste of your time.

No one notices what you've done, and no one cared a single shit.

When you start to realize that you've put in too much effort, you get really tired and start to stop putting in so much.

Thats when they start noticing, noticing something has changed - but their attitude towards you was not gratefulness but vengeance, or maybe worse - hate.

After so much pain you've gone through, after thinking of all those unrealistic promises, you just want to break free.

Free from this world, this reality, this cruel truth.

The harder you struggle the harder you fall.

Carrying those burdens and hardship like there are yours to keep in the first place.

The pile keeps stacking, the weight kept increasing.

That pressure, into a wound trying to heal so bad but was repeatedly pried open time and time again - digging deeper and deeper.

Maybe thats how life works. Making you go through all the pain and sorrow, making you taste the worst to see if you're worthy for the better.

I guess i'm just not ready for things like that yet

XOXO

Jane